Experimental :: Imagination: April 2010

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Dancer in the dark

Is it wrong that I am addicted to this movie?
You can interpret this movie in so many ways but the way I see it is
devotion towards a goal. It makes me happy bad sad at the end. Bjork
is just amazing in this. I k ow a lot of people don't like her in it
but I love it.
Anyways here I am again watching this depressing movie. It deffinately
fits the current mood I am in.
I am mentally exashted as I am still trying to come to terms with
myself that I just been "discharged" from my work that I truely
devoted my time into but feels like I've been tossed to the curb for
something better than me. That is maybe true but I can't get over it.
And on top of loosing my job I Cannot afford things. I am sacrificing
things now that can hurt me and more likely other people around me.
Since I will have limited money, my health is going to be part of my
sacrifice as cannot afford it anymore.
Ugh... Too much on my mind and remember all.. I love you guys and
thanks for the support for this difficult time. It was difficult
before I lost my job but now it's going to be tougher. I really. Do
not know how I am going to get through it.
I am just praying that no more tumors pop up because if it does I know
I am going to have to pull the plug on myself so that financial burden
is not on anyone else.
Thanks all for the support!
For now I have my little bitches with me and I love them to death.
They make me happy!
<3 <3 <3
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